By: Nicol Maciejewska
Coming to a realization through self-monologue seems to be one of the things I do best. I’m constantly in my head, questioning everything. It’s no surprise that I began questioning the toll social media has had on my life. Perfection seems to be the only thing that matters and I began investing time in people’s online accounts wondering why can’t I be just like them.
I became obsessed with ‘it’ girls, like most of us do. Constantly wondering how can I achieve that success. The problem became worse when someone I was acquainted with had a taste of the spotlight and the feeling I hate the most overcame me, jealousy. This feeling has been eating away at me for months.
Then I began to think who this acquaintance aspires to be. She wants to be the next Kendall Jenner or an Instagram famous model and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with wanting those things, except that’s not at all what I want. I want to be somebody like Carrie Bradshaw or Alexa Chung or in other words a girl whose career is media.
So why am I sitting around and comparing our lives if they’re so dramatically different? Well for starters, it has a lot do with my insecurities. I’m always longing to feel accepted, especially in the cutthroat world of fashion, but I’ve come to a conclusion. It’s okay to want the taste of the spotlight because that want motivates me. Also, that social media is a curation of the highlights of somebody’s life and just because it seems perfect doesn’t mean your life is less superior. The most important thing I learned is to never forget your own accomplishments because you’re blinded by someone else’s.